Not-so-good news

Why is it that I find it so easy to share good news and so incredibly hard to share not-so-good news?? I have wanted to share every aspect of this journey so far, and I am sure some of you know way more about me than you ever wanted to. I don't want to spread bad news. I want to keep it all bottled up inside and hold onto it, kind of like if I don't share it then maybe it won't be true. Maybe I can change the outcome of these test results if I don't tell anybody. What in the world am I thinking?? I could be CRAZY!! The results from our day 2 blood work (6/24/08) STINK! My estrogen level was 81.5=BAD, my FSH level was 17.2=REALLY BAD. These numbers are horrible. The FSH level being so high means my egg reserve is REALLY BAD (that # is considered premenopausal, although I find that terribly hard to understand, I know that I am old but I hardly think that 34 should be considered premenopausal). I have at least 2 cysts on my ovary and my partial right tube is possibly causing some problems. I was given all of this information on Tuesday night (6/24/08) and Garrett and I were just devastated. "It's just not right, it's just not fair, we don't understand", this is just about all we could say over and over again.


We spent Wednesday at home with each other just trying to get a grip. We got a phone call from the nurse (at almost 5:00pm) to try and figure out some of the questions that we have. First, how can my FSH level go from 7 to 17???? She said that it changes and could be better next month. REALLY!! That makes absolutely no sense but OK! Secondly, could my blood pressure or thyroid medicine cause the numbers to change??? NO (Stink, stink, stink-we were hoping that could be an answer) . Thirdly, can we get in to see Dr. Jaffe any earlier than 07/27/08?? NO!-she is on vacation and has no other openings, unless someone cancels. Garrett and I talked about a bunch of options and meanwhile my mom and sister were busy looking for other doctors. Cheryl found one in Colorado who has excellent #'s. We are incredibly blessed with a very supportive family who are very excited about the potential of having a Carie/Garrett little one running around.

Meds are in!

Our meds have arrived. My mom just called and said that they were in. We had our medication shipped to my mom's since she is home during the day. I am on pins and needles.

Breathe

I have placed the order for our IVF medications. (Breathe)

The medications were:
Follistim AQ cartridge 900 international units =$2768.00
(Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe,)
Doxycycline 100 mg=$free-covered by our insurance
Ganirelix Acetate=$342.76
Menopur=$231.60
Ovidrel 250 mcg=$138.00
Progesterone in Oil=$free-covered by our insurance
Progesterone Capsules=$free-covered by our insurance
Misc. syringes=$6.00
VIP membership (to get these amazingly LOW prices)=$12.00

GRAND TOTAL=$3498.36
(Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe,)

I must really go and get on the couch now and try to relax and not think about all of that $$$$$.

Dog Tired!!!

How about these 2 guys. They are so tired!! They have a very stressful life and much of their day is spent recovering from playing with the tennis balls and eating.

IVF appointment

We had an IVF appointment today. My blood pressure was good (124/77) and they had the results from the AMH blood test, it was .4. The nurse said that was a little low and they based my protocol accordingly. If everything stays on track then we should start with the injections on either 6/24 or 6/25. This would be a 10 day process of injections before all of the real fun (Ha!Ha!) starts. I won't go into all of the details until I know more. As for the cysts, we will check on them on 6/24 or 6/25.

Thank you for all of your prayers!!

We had our IVF appointment today. The "mock transfer" went well and my uterus still looks good. Jaffe did find 3 cysts on my ovary which is not necessarily a good thing and my blood pressure was around 156/92 (or something) when I got there, so they decided to take it before I left and it was 147/85 (which is not good, I am on blood pressure medicine and I go to Dr. Thorne on Friday (06/06/08) for a follow up appointment.) They did blood work today to check the AMH level (anti mullerian hormone- ovary reserve) and it will take 3 to 4 days to get that result back. They are re-checking it to make sure that the cyst on my ovary did not have any effect on the original number. So we have another appointment on 6/17/08 to check my thyroid numbers and my blood pressure.

I am crazy emotional right now and we have not even started any medication yet. We had to sign our consent forms today and Garrett & I both started laughing (at the same time) when we read the part that talked about mood swings. I have been blessed with an absolutely amazing husband who can deal with these so called "mood swings". I can hardly stand myself sometimes, and he just looks at me with those amazing blue eyes and I know that everything is O.K. He is so patient and that is just what I need.